This is my life

I figure for my first post I should probably let you get to know me a bit. If you already do know me, you can stop here and wait for my next post or keep reading and maybe you will learn something new. First of all I am 27 years old, I have been married to my husband Mike for 3 1/2 years and we have 3 children together. Our first child is our son Jaden. He is 4 years old and definently keeps me busy! He is a very sweet kid but can be there biggest stinker you ever met! He fills my days with many laughs with his funny stories and also gives me many moments of wanting to pull my hair out! I wouldn't trade him for anything though. He is what keeps me going. My other 2 children are my daughters Emily and Allison. They are twins and unfortunately are no longer with us. Allison died 3 hours after birth and Emily 8 days later. They are my sweet angels. Let me tell you, being the mother to angels is just as difficult and rewarding as having living children. On a daily basis the make me just as happy, frustrated and exhausted as my son. I miss them more than words can say. I am so proud to be the mother of all 3 of my children. I will get more into the story of my daughters in later posts. It is a very long story.

Since losing my daughters in November my life has changed in a very big way. There are things that I have learned through my experience that I am really working on changing. I learned how important it is for me to have my own life away from my husband and children. Too may mothers define themselves as just a mother and wife and forget about themselves. If you don't get time to yourself to do the things YOU love to do, you'll go crazy, and to me that doesn't make for a very happy Mama! Life should be about more than the cooking, cleaning, and taking care of everyone else. Don't get me wrong, I love taking care of my family, but I need my ME time! So I recently have picked up a few new hobbies. I have renewed my love for reading. When I was young I read a lot and enjoyed it very much, so I decided to start the Twilight series and love them! I am totally addicted. I can spend a whole afternoon reading. Another hobby I have fell in love with is scrap booking. This is something I can't get away from! I love it! It is so much fun, especially since I have many friends who share the same hobby.

Another thing I have been working on is my marriage. Not that it wasn't great before, but we have really been working on spending a lot more time together. Going on date nights to the movies and dinner or to the casino. I am lucky to have a husband who I really like as my friend just as well as my life partner. We enjoy each others company and have a lot of fun together. Even just sitting at home watching Supercross together we have a lot of fun. I believe our experience of losing our daughters has brought us closer than ever. So that's just me in a nutshell. I have lots of stuff to talk about so I'm sure I will be blogging a lot more soon! Until then...